Bad Days ARE HARD

/ July 10, 2017

I suffer from depression and anxiety, I have done for years now. On and off over the years, it has had its really bad times. Today is one of them days. I struggle to find clarity through all the noise. I wake up feeling defeated and stressed even though I don't really know why!

It's not easy, no one ever said it was, but nobody said how bad it really is. That is the cold hard truth that when I was told that I was suffering from depression and anxiety nobody really sat there and told me how bad some days really get. How hard it is just getting out of bed let alone actually living the nightmare of your day.

All that goes through my head on days like today is noise. I can't make anything out of it, I can't understand why I can't stop it and I feel exhausted, wow do I! All I know in this precise moment in time is that I know I am down and I don't know how to stop it. I know there's no magical fix for it and I know that time heals but how much more time!

I like to think that sometimes I can work out whats wrong and if I do that then the noise will stop and I can calm down and think, however, this is always not the case. I just find it bizarre that I can have a day like this and know that tomorrow isn't going to be as bad and I will get through it. I love my brain at the same time as hating.

I wish I could just wake up and not feel like this but I have to realize that this is a part of my life for now. It isn't permanent and I will make sure that tomorrow is a better day, but for now, I will ride this wave.

The fact of the matter is, is that I can't even focus on watching adverts at the moment without anything else going on. I want to be able to sit down and write all of the issues going on that maybe causing this but the noise at the moment is too much!

Speak Soon

Danielle xx

I suffer from depression and anxiety, I have done for years now. On and off over the years, it has had its really bad times. Today is one of them days. I struggle to find clarity through all the noise. I wake up feeling defeated and stressed even though I don't really know why!

It's not easy, no one ever said it was, but nobody said how bad it really is. That is the cold hard truth that when I was told that I was suffering from depression and anxiety nobody really sat there and told me how bad some days really get. How hard it is just getting out of bed let alone actually living the nightmare of your day.

All that goes through my head on days like today is noise. I can't make anything out of it, I can't understand why I can't stop it and I feel exhausted, wow do I! All I know in this precise moment in time is that I know I am down and I don't know how to stop it. I know there's no magical fix for it and I know that time heals but how much more time!

I like to think that sometimes I can work out whats wrong and if I do that then the noise will stop and I can calm down and think, however, this is always not the case. I just find it bizarre that I can have a day like this and know that tomorrow isn't going to be as bad and I will get through it. I love my brain at the same time as hating.

I wish I could just wake up and not feel like this but I have to realize that this is a part of my life for now. It isn't permanent and I will make sure that tomorrow is a better day, but for now, I will ride this wave.

The fact of the matter is, is that I can't even focus on watching adverts at the moment without anything else going on. I want to be able to sit down and write all of the issues going on that maybe causing this but the noise at the moment is too much!

Speak Soon

Danielle xx
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The end of an era is an important moment in a lot of peoples lives as they go through life they notice big moments coming to an end and as this isn't really a personal moment for me it is important to me.

Pretty Little Liars will finish this Wednesday on Netflix. I have been watching Pretty Little Liars since season 1 back in March 2011 on MTV. Personally, at first I wasn't sure on the first season but it kept me watching every week. I found myself every week falling in love with the characters, I had a few relatable moments with the character Hanna.

However, as the seasons went on I found myself loving the character Emily more and more. I think the reason why it was so important to myself as I found a lot of relatable traits in myself. I mean I didn't have a weird stalker sending me weird text messages haha.

It was a program that connected with so many people on so many different levels. We all found ourselves holding on to the next episode every week just to see what would happen, keeping us all on our toes for years! Even when we thought it was over it wasn't.

I am honestly sad and upset about the fact that it will be ending tomorrow and I have already started to rewatch it all over again. I hope that tomorrows episode brings me shock and sadness and happiness all at the same time like it always does.

So, tell me what is your favorite program that has ended or is ending soon?

Speak Soon,

Danielle xxx

End of an Era

by on June 27, 2017
The end of an era is an important moment in a lot of peoples lives as they go through life they notice big moments coming to an end and a...


I probably spend at least 60% of my day scrolling through Instagram on a daily basis. I love it, I love the freedom you have on there to post whatever you want!

So I thought I would compile My 8 Most Loved Instagram Accounts To Follow! Here we go!


CosyPrints - These are some amazing prints! They are so gorgeous and I find myself getting lost in just scrolling through the images. I am yet to buy anything because I want to wait to move before I can decorate every room with their Prints! You can check them out on Instagram Here they also have an Etsy shop you should check out here


InkKings - They are a local Tattooist to me and I have been there once (Not to get a tattoo unfortunately) I did sit down and chat with Leon about a year ago about some ideas I had and I haven't had the funds to go ahead with them as of yet, but look at that artwork! If you need a tattoo fix then head over to their Instagram Here


Abbey Willis - I have had the pleasure of training with Abbey in the past and she is such a lovely person and BODY GOALS! She has done so well in so many competitions. In all honesty, I scroll through just getting jealous of how amazing she looks and how far she has come! Check her out on her Instagram Here


Carly Rowena - I have already mentioned in a previous post about how much admiration I have for Carly but her Instagram is so aesthetically pleasing its unbelievable (all that healthy food and all them bright colors) what more could you want! Check out her Instagram Here


The XPATS - They are on a journey around the UAE and all the images are just beautiful and their blog is even better! I love just escaping away to their Instagram and just getting lost in their journey. Check them out on Instagram Here


Emily Canham - I have only really just discovered Emily, on YouTube and Instagram but her feed is just so beautiful with clothing and images that you know she wants to have memories from! I love seeing where she is heading off to next in her bio! Check out her Instagram Here


Helen Anderson - I discovered Helen on YouTube around about a year ago and I love her attitude and her fashion sense. Her Instagram is goals in confidence. I love seeing her new posts! Check her out on Instagram Here


Samantha Maria - What do I need to say, her pictures say it all! she is amazing at making her feed so in sync and beautifully aesthetic in every way. Check her out on Instagram Here

As you can see it is quite a variety of accounts I follow and that is only 8! What are your most loved Instagram Accounts? Tell me below!

Speak Soon

Danielle xx

Back in the day when we were younger, we think that there is nothing we would change! However, as you get older and you look back you start to think I wish I knew it back then! Here are my 10 Things I wish I knew earlier!

1. CREDIT!!!
Now when I turned 18 I thought that the world opened this whole new world of credit and being able to get a phone on contract and all these other fancy things, however, I have since now learned that credit is a good thing as long as you look after it! I took out a phone and got a store card the minute I turned 18 and I am still paying for it now. I did not look after it at all!!

2. FRIENDS
Not all of your friends from school stay your friends. It is a hard lesson to learn and it doesn't get easier as you get older. I only have around 3-4 friends I still speak to from school, I feel that as you get older you mature and go your separate ways, not in a bad way but in a way that's good for everybody involved. However, I have always been told if you can count your best friends, on one hand, your a lucky person!

3. BILLS!
I wish I knew when I was younger how truly hard it is to 'adult' every day! I mean there are bills for everything! Even unexpected ones that turn up and you sit there thinking where did this come from. Bills are not the fun part of growing up!

4. RELATIONSHIPS
You may be one of the lucky few that met your one true love at a young age and never had to deal with heartbreak, but this is one of the biggest lessons I have learned growing up. Your heart is so fragile when it comes to letting someone in and then when they are no longer there it breaks into a million pieces and you think it will never get easier, but it does. I promise!

5. SCHOOL
I left school before my GCSE's because I was bullied and I really didn't like school at all. (Secretly have a problem with authority) However, as I have grown up I have learned that it was a huge mistake leaving school early. I wouldn't change it now because I probably wouldn't be where I am now. I would strongly advise against it!

6. RUSHING
There is no reason at all in life to rush anything! Take your time and let it happen when it happens, rushing is no good for anyone in life! It adds stress that is not required.

7. RELAX
It will be okay! Whatever is stressing you out it will be okay, it may not be okay now or tomorrow but it will be, I have learned that stressing out about even the small things is something that is not healthy. You cannot control things that are out of your hands, relax, take a breather and figure it out in your own time.

8.BODY IMAGE
Your body is your body. I used to look in magazines and look at all these stunning women and aspire to try and look like them. You will never look like them, genetics designed you the way you are. Yes, you can change things you are not happy with but it is not worth getting upset with yourself because you cannot be that woman in the magazine.

9.MONEY
It does not grow on trees! Use your money wisely, I mean yeah we all buy nice things we deserve the money we earn but it does not last forever. Save where you can you will thank me later!

10. CAREER
You may be in a career that you have been in for several years and love it, but there is still some of us out there that do not know what they want to do. I have worked in several places ranging from offices to retail to childcare to restaurant and me still at the age of 27 know what I want to do and that is okay.

I want to hear your 10 things you wish you knew earlier write some down in the comments below.

Speak Soon!

Danielle xx


With Fathers Day coming up in the UK on Sunday 18th June, I thought it would be appropriate to show you some ideas I have come up with and what I have got so far. 

I don't get to see my dad that often as he lives 162 miles away, and we both lead busy lifestyles. I hate the fact that I don't get to see him as often as I want too but that's the way it is, unfortunately.

However, this does not stop me from sending him a little something every now and then. So here is my guide to what to get your father on father's day.

Starting off small and affordable:


This is the I Love U Dad biscuit gift from the Biscuiteers, This is priced at £9.00, I think this is an affordable little gift idea for those who want to gift from a child or even a teenager, We know they're all big softies inside, but sometimes you have to spell it out. This beautiful biscuit card comes in our hand-illustrated gift box and can be delivered to his door. The ultimate Father's Day present! You can find this item at The Biscuiteers Website

The next item I found and thought may be a good idea for those Hero fans out there is this option!






I thought this would be a brilliant idea for those Hero fans out there. 'Inside our hand-illustrated gift tin you'll find Superman, Batman, Robin, Wonder Woman, the Joker and a host of super hero biscuits. This tin is designed for super-heroes everywhere' This is a share based gift for everyone in the family to enjoy! It is priced at £45.00. You can add a personal message onto the tin also this is an option on the website here.

Lastly but the option I have chosen is 



I have been kindly gifted this item from my affiliate the biscuiteers! This is their Dad's DIY Kit Biscuit Collection, and I cannot wait to give this. The price for this collection is £39.50. 'We have to say, this one has been a bit of a favorite with all the DIY-ers here at Biscuiteers' You can find this gift over here

I have to say that these biscuits taste amazing! and I have fully enjoyed trying this biscuit and so has my family. 

If you want to go and check the Biscuiteers for any other gifts as they have plenty over there ranging from £6.00 to £45.00. They have an option for everyone! 

Speak soon

Danielle xx

Now there has been a few articles surrounding the Facebook group called 'GIRLSMOUTH' and I just wanted to tell you all about it. *well what I can*

GIRLSMOUTH is a Facebook group created by Chloe Todd, it was created in  January of 2017 and it has skyrocketed into a community with 68,309 members, Chloe has 5 admins who work with her to make this group the most powerful community of women I have ever seen not just UK based but GLOBAL.

Chloe started GIRLSMOUTH because she wanted to create a place where local girls could get to know each other more and be nice to each other instead of being catty.

I have posted on the group several times be it about my anxiety or other things, and every time without a doubt, there has always been someone there to respond and talk to. I have noticed a lot of girls making close friendships within the group.

To make the page more manageable there are some rules that have been set in place to protect the group and the users.


Personally I tend to not get on with girls because I have found in the past that they can be quite catty and not friendly, however, this group has shown me that us women need to stick together and create a powerful and overwhelming relationship.

These girls in this group create so many laughs and memories within the group, due to this group I no longer feel that I am alone when I have a problem or just want a laugh. Whenever I am feeling down I know I can always turn to the group to lift me up and make me laugh again.

The sky is the limit when it comes to this group, the growth in this group in just 6 months is unbelievable and I cannot believe that I only found the group last month.

I cannot wait to see how this group grows as time goes. Come and join in!

Speak Soon

Danielle xx


What is GIRLSMOUTH?

by on June 05, 2017
Now there has been a few articles surrounding the Facebook group called 'GIRLSMOUTH' and I just wanted to tell you all about it...


When I was in school I had a pretty good circle of friends and I loved going to school until I reached the age of 14/15, that was when it went downhill for me. I started making wrong choices becoming friends with the wrong people and just getting into trouble.

I started to get bullied around 14/15 and it was the worst time of my life, I ended up dropping out of school and not going back when I was 16. It was never physical bullying but the verbal bullying hurt more. I would go home most days from school and just sit in my bedroom and cry until I couldn't anymore.

The bullying wasn't just about my appearance or how I dressed, it was general name calling. I was once followed home by a bunch of girls and then threatened to beat me up after school, I would lock my door when I got home every day in case someone could get in.

People think that bullying is just something all kids go through and that it makes people stronger. In fact, it causes more of an adverse affect on their lives later on. In my case, I have depression and self-hate towards the way I look.

I wake up every morning hating the way I look because I have the image in my head that everyone is judging me when I walk down the street. I know that they aren't but because of what I have been called in the past it has affected me.

Insecurities rule my life, I hate the way I look, I look through social media and magazines and see all these beautiful girls and think where did I go wrong, why can't I look like that. I wish I had more confidence in myself.

Bullies need to realize what they do to people, not just in the present but in the future.

Speak soon

Danielle
xx

Bullying My Story

by on June 01, 2017
When I was in school I had a pretty good circle of friends and I loved going to school until I reached the age of 14/15, that was when i...


So I watched Carly Rowena's video yesterday and I have to say it's the most empowering video  I have watched in a long time. If you want to check out this video for yourself here is the video.


She spoke of herself turning 30 and all the things that she has learned to embrace and empower in herself over the years. As a 26-year-old woman, I can relate to a lot of the things she has said. Some of the words she used within the video is so powerful, 'I have accomplished a lot in this body and its grown with me well.' and 'I have also grown to love the stretch marks from gaining and stretch marks from losing weight.' and 'I smile more now that I ever knew I could and I love stronger than the movies said I would.' 

I noticed whilst watching this film that she is probably the most humble individual that I have ever watched. Admittedly I wish I could smile more than I probably do and I wish I could love my stretch marks. This video has really shown me that you can grow to love the skin you were born in and that all of the imperfections have a story behind them that will continue to be told throughout your lifetime. 

To top the video off on its emotional rollercoaster Carly and Leon got married! These two really are goals as a couple. They are so perfectly matched that it's a beautiful story that they have created and continue to create in their married life. 

I just want to Thank Carly for making such an empowering and emotional video! 

Please go and check her video out and show it some love. 

Speak Soon, 

Danielle xx

Humble

by on May 29, 2017
So I watched Carly Rowena's video yesterday and I have to say it's the most empowering video  I have watched in a long time....

So we all have them days where we just want to be lazy and not really do anything. I am having one of those today!

I woke up later than I usually do which has set me back for the day entirely. I worked all weekend so didn't do much over the weekend, however working seems to make me more tired than usual but its not a normal job. I love my job but man is it demanding!

In all honesty I haven't done much today apart from catch up on Pretty Little Liars, can we just say about how sad it is that this is the last few episodes and then its gone forever? I have watched Brotherhood and just relaxed in my PJs all day.

Sorry this is a short post!

Speak Soon

Danielle xx

The Weekend

by on May 15, 2017
So we all have them days where we just want to be lazy and not really do anything. I am having one of those today! I woke up later than...


Ever woken up in the morning and thought 'this is going to be a good day'? Yeah me too. I cannot count the number of times I have woken up and thought this and then my brain wakes up and starts to think about the things I have to do that day. Even the smallest things can trigger my anxiety sometimes.

Mental Health, why is there such a stigma attached to this word? Personally I never really understood anxiety or depression until I was diagnosed with it. I was never taught in school about how soul destroying and exhausting mental illnesses could be. Why? Why wasn't I given the option to learn about something that I was not prepared for?

When I got diagnosed I thought there was going to be a simple remedy and that I would be 'normal' again. Oh, I was wrong! 7 years down the line and I am still trying to figure this all out. I have to say that having a strong family around me and a strong partner that it is slightly easier. But when I have a day where I do not want to speak to anyone, have no contact with the outside world let alone people close to me, these are the days that I push those special people away.

Sometimes all I want to do is just lay in bed and not do anything but I know that I can't do this as I have things to do on a daily basis, but there is always that want. I know that one day I will get there eventually. 

Triggers? What sets me into a complete panic - Traffic, Motorways and the worry of doing or have done something wrong. All three of them things are out of my control, big control freak. I have always been in control of what I do and what's going on around me however when it comes to these particular things I lose all control. 

So that is my anxiety. What is your story? Let's make the stigma change!

Speak Soon 

Danielle xx



My Anxiety

by on May 12, 2017
Ever woken up in the morning and thought 'this is going to be a good day'? Yeah me too. I cannot count the number of times I hav...

Good Morning!

I hope you are well. 

Now I wanted to dedicate today's post to my other half. A bit of background on Mark and myself, we met 2 years ago on Plenty of Fish! We started speaking for a few days before finally meeting up. Wen went for a long walk and spoke for hours, we figured out that we had actually have met several years ago and had actually met without even knowing!

Move forward a few months and Mark moves in with me and we have been happy ever since we have had our ups and downs and been through some tough times but he has always pulled through to be the strong man I know he is. 

He has recently decided to start his own business and try and make a name for himself and provide for us. I fully support this decision he has made and I think he could really make it work. I want him to succeed in everything he does and I will be there to support him no matter what. 

We have spoken about moving into a house together and starting to move forward with our relationship, but I honestly cannot wait until we do! I just cannot wait to continue to make more memories and build a future and family together. 

Since having poppy we have really grown together to make sure she is the happiest little puppy ever, 

So this post goes out to Mark, my world, my everything and my all. 

I love you!

Speak Soon! 

Danielle xx

My Everything

by on May 11, 2017
Good Morning! I hope you are well.  Now I wanted to dedicate today's post to my other half. A bit of background on Mark and mysel...