Anxiety; What a word!

December 20, 2016

Hey Everyone,

I felt like I needed to get this off of my chest. I was told 3 years ago that I have depression and anxiety. Now when I first got told this I didn't think much of it I just thought it would get better (naivety at its best).

Now 3 years down the line I am only able to only just start to understand the meaning of it all and how they go hand in hand and you don't have to have a reason to have these things. We all have anxiety built into us, its more about how your brain interprets each situation.

Today isn't a good day for me. I haven't been happy and I have been just staying inside and not wanting to face the world and as I am writing this I am thinking more and more about just closing the laptop and ignoring the fact I need to talk about my bad day.

I woke up this morning feeling fine and happy, and then as I started to wake up my brain starts to think over the day and then I realise the very minor and small bad things and that is it my brain gives up on the day. 

Now this is where I end up. Sat on my sofa 9/10 crying over something and then trying to get my brain to just slow down. If it wasn't for Poppy and wanting her walks then I wouldn't get out of the house. 

This little one sure knows how to make me smile on a bad day. 

As the years have gone on I have certainly learnt how to turn my triggers off and how to snap out of the moods I am in however there are some days where I just cannot just snap out of it and today is one of them days. I wanted to clean up today and get the house ready for this weekend but as the day goes on I just do not have the energy. I want to be able to wake up one morning and not have to worry about my day and so I can just relax and get on with my day.  

But the one thing I always take away with me is that I am happy and that I need to take each day as they come. 

Thanks for reading, 

Danielle xx

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