My Anxiety

Ever woken up in the morning and thought 'this is going to be a good day'? Yeah me too. I cannot count the number of times I have woken up and thought this and then my brain wakes up and starts to think about the things I have to do that day. Even the smallest things can trigger my anxiety sometimes.

Mental Health, why is there such a stigma attached to this word? Personally I never really understood anxiety or depression until I was diagnosed with it. I was never taught in school about how soul destroying and exhausting mental illnesses could be. Why? Why wasn't I given the option to learn about something that I was not prepared for?

When I got diagnosed I thought there was going to be a simple remedy and that I would be 'normal' again. Oh, I was wrong! 7 years down the line and I am still trying to figure this all out. I have to say that having a strong family around me and a strong partner that it is slightly easier. But when I have a day where I do not want to speak to anyone, have no contact with the outside world let alone people close to me, these are the days that I push those special people away.

Sometimes all I want to do is just lay in bed and not do anything but I know that I can't do this as I have things to do on a daily basis, but there is always that want. I know that one day I will get there eventually. 

Triggers? What sets me into a complete panic - Traffic, Motorways and the worry of doing or have done something wrong. All three of them things are out of my control, big control freak. I have always been in control of what I do and what's going on around me however when it comes to these particular things I lose all control. 

So that is my anxiety. What is your story? Let's make the stigma change!

Speak Soon 

Danielle xx